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An AFineWar Personal Announcement

Journal Entry: Mon Nov 12, 2012, 9:10 AM

I think I will be taking a break from creating 'art' I put art in quotations because I'll still most likely be doing things like creating Photoshop resources and textures but I'm not at all satisfied with what I've been doing 'art' wise. I've got these grand ideas in my head and when I start working on them I become increasingly discouraged because it never comes out the way I want it to; or I end up doing something much more simplistic because I don't have the the skill base to do the complicated thing I really wanted to do. I feel like I'm stuck... or worse, sinking, into an abyss of mediocrity and I don't like it.

I've been getting quite a few compliments lately, much more than I did in the beginning and it is incredibly uplifting but at the same time I feel like I don't deserve it. I know I could be doing better than this, I know I owe my dedicated watchers and friends better than this. So as the age old saying goes 'practice makes perfect' and I'm going to study and work and try to become the artist I truly believe is locked up somewhere inside of me.

I'm not going to stop posting journals, writing comments, showing :+favlove: to your work, being active in groups, telling you all how much I love and adore you :P. Just don't expect to see any 'art' from me until I've grown to a point I can actually be proud of again. I hope you don't un-watch, but if you do I understand. You watched for the art and I'm now telling you that I'm not going to be doing what you decided to watch me for in the first place for an undetermined amount of time. 

I just wanted to give you all a heads up.

Much love and chicken grease to you all :heart:

CSS Journal Coded by FleX177

Just something that I felt like letting you all know... but, blah, who really gives a fudge.
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namenotrequired Dec 16, 2012  Student Interface Designer
My attitude is often like this too. I lose energy, drive, and confidence. Not sure if there is a remedy other than time. Starting December 1 I'm going to start cracking again. I've been practicing a little, but I've not improved in the past 2 months or so. A couple of tips I can offer:

Don't let practice and learning become an excuse for doing. Even if you think your skills aren't up to par you have a greater opportunity to learn by trying a project vs. just practice and study.

When learning and studying it is extremely important to set goals. Make sure you take your big goal and break it down into smaller, more manageable ones. Make sure you set goals that have measurable results so you can tell when you've accomplished the goal. I need to do this for myself. Send me a note if you'd like to work through something like this together. I'd enjoy your help. Also it can be helpful to have a partner hold you accountable for working toward goals.

Also do a lot of self observation and try to note what makes you feel good about your art. Note what makes you feel bad. Sometimes just recognizing these things helps, and but I find knowing what to harness and what to avoid is important for me.

I'd be happy to help you work on these things if you'd be interested in doing the same for me :-)
Foozma73 Nov 14, 2012   Photographer
I've been there. It's not a very good feeling. I hope you are able to come out of it soon. In fact, I know you will. Something will inspire you, and you'll be good to go again. :hug:
GaarasDaughter Nov 13, 2012  Student General Artist
I understand, but I am a little sad. We all feel this way at one point or another, so I'm very thankful that you let us know :) I will not un-watch. Anything you post is art in the eyes of a mentally unstable girl (^^;)
Siren-Badru Nov 13, 2012  Student General Artist
I understand- I feel like this occasionally too <3
hippychick-nm Nov 13, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I have and still do at time feel the way you do. Please don't be discouraged. Just because you have an idea that doesn't come out the way you feel it should have doesn't mean it has no merit. Perhaps if you were to step away for a few days and come back and look at your piece you will see something you didn't see before. Most of my work starts out one way and because of not having the knowledge and or tools to execute what I am try to attempt it comes out looking completely different and some times I can't believe that I am able to create something that I really feel great about. PS I think you're a great artist and I also believe lots of people give a fudge. :hug:
EvidentlyChickentown Nov 12, 2012
hope you get the "feeling" back soon
FP-Digital-Art Nov 12, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Take your time :)
Shadow-Hacker Nov 12, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I would give a fudge but I'm greedy and my moms homemade stuff is best in the world :XD: but seriously, Your art is great and just because you don't think its good enough then it doesn't make it true. If you choose to stop producing art for a time, I understand and will still be here when you find your groove again :)
thatshortmusicmajor Nov 12, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I understand. I'm in the middle of this, hopefully not for long. Ugh, school.
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