I think I will be taking a break from creating 'art' I put art in quotations because I'll still most likely be doing things like creating Photoshop resources and textures but I'm not at all satisfied with what I've been doing 'art' wise. I've got these grand ideas in my head and when I start working on them I become increasingly discouraged because it never comes out the way I want it to; or I end up doing something much more simplistic because I don't have the the skill base to do the complicated thing I really wanted to do. I feel like I'm stuck... or worse, sinking, into an abyss of mediocrity and I don't like it.
I've been getting quite a few compliments lately, much more than I did in the beginning and it is incredibly uplifting but at the same time I feel like I don't deserve it. I know I could be doing better than this, I know I owe my dedicated watchers and friends better than this. So as the age old saying goes 'practice makes perfect' and I'm going to study and work and try to become the artist I truly believe is locked up somewhere inside of me.
I'm not going to stop posting journals, writing comments, showing
to your work, being active in groups, telling you all how much I love and adore you
. Just don't expect to see any 'art' from me until I've grown to a point I can actually be proud of again. I hope you don't un-watch, but if you do I understand. You watched for the art and I'm now telling you that I'm not going to be doing what you decided to watch me for in the first place for an undetermined amount of time.
I just wanted to give you all a heads up.
Much love and chicken grease to you all